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Reflection

Perhaps its because I focus so much of my year around football season, but this time of year always puts me in a strange place. Every September, I find myself looking back at the past few years and everything that I’ve done. This year isn’t much different, except for the fact that I’m looking back without really knowing what is ahead.

Last year I looked back on my last year of college and looked forward to my first year in the “real world”. The year before that I looked back on my entire college career and looked forward to finishing it up. This year though, I’m reflecting on the past and genuinely questioning what the future will be.

Now when I say I’m reflecting, I don’t mean I’m longing for what once was, or regretting things I did/didn’t do. I’m just taking stock of what my life has been, what it is, and what it will be.

I find it interesting that I always end up in this place, because I really don’t have any regrets. Maybe one or two, but those regrets are part of who I am now. When I look back on the last 5 or so years, I can’t think of anything that I’d really do differently. I’m happy with who and where I am. I’d maybe change some minor things, do more, maybe take a few more risks, but I wouldn’t want to change my life as it is now. But where do I want my life to go from here?

I struggle with that question a lot, because I genuinely don’t know. One of the few things that I’m sure of is that I don’t want to leave Austin. I love this city, despite all its flaws, and I want to stay here as long as possible. Besides that though, I don’t know.

Do I want a new job? Maybe. I like my current job, but I certainly don’t LOVE it. Do I want to go back to school? Probably not. I’ve given it thought, but I don’t see it as being useful to me. I just want to DO something. I feel like I’m just stuck spinning my wheels. I don’t have a destination.

I’ve been struggling to find motivation to move forward lately, but I think I finally found what will drive me to be productive. Ironically, its nothing new. Its the same as it ever was.

Just like every team that takes the field this season, I have to be the best. I have to win.

And rest assured, I will.

Welp

So much for that “blogging more” thing (Again. Again again. Again again again.)

HOWEVER, I have good reason for it! First off, I’ve been working a lot at real work, and that’s drained a lot of my energy and drive to do things when the evening rolls around.

Second, I’ve been gaming a lot more. That’s right! The schedule worked! I’ve recently started playing Hero Academy and I’ve been kicking around on my Xbox more than I used to. Soon I’ll start my ritual series-playthrough for Halo 4 (Before each new Halo game I play through the entire series), and Borderlands 2. I’m also REALLY looking forward to Rock Band Blitz, so much so that I’m considering staying up until it hits XBLA at 2am. We’ll see.

In addition to those two things, I’ve also been working a bit on RT SideQuest stuff. Specifically I’ve been trying to rearrange/redesign the front-end of our website to be more user-friendly. The feedback we got from people who used it during RTX was really helpful, and hopefully after PAX I can get everything ironed out and running smoothly.

Speaking of PAX, I’m going to that. I’ll be working the Twisted Pixel booth again for half of the show, and running around doing fun stuff with Julia for the other half. It’ll be a blast and I cant wait!

I’ve also been working on writing my campaign for the Marvel Heroic RPG. The Civil War expansion was just released, and I’m starting a campaign pretty soon. I just need to finish a bit more content, and then find a few more players that are interested. Sound interesting to you? Let me know. We’ll probably be playing on Sunday afternoon/evenings and it’ll be internet-friendly.

Finally, the thing that has taken up the most of my time is planning for the college football season. Yes, it sounds crazy. Yes, it probably is a bit of crazy. However, that crazy has pushed me to a point where I have the first three weeks of the season completely scheduled and ready to go. Any of my friends are more than welcome to join me at Command Central during the season to enjoy a game (or two, or three, or four… or twenty-one, etc) and a beer (or two, or three… etc). Seriously, just give me a heads up that you’re heading over and I’ll make sure that I save a spot on a couch for you.

All in all, life is good. Now if someone would just figure out how the hell to extend a day by a few hours, or synthesize sleep into pill form, I’d be REALLY happy!

Re-re-rededication

How many times have I said I’m going to start blogging regularly again?

Add one to that count.

So many things have happened since my last post that I’ve got quite a few posts to make to catch up. My recent vacation/recharge really made me want to rededicate myself to enjoying my life. I’ve been working like crazy for many months, both at my real job and with SideQuest/RTX, so I want to get back to having fun by playing more video games, reading books, blogging, etc. Step one is going to be creating a gaming schedule. I want to plan out when and what I play, and do so in a way that I optimize my enjoyment. I also want to recap RTX and SideQuest, as well as my vacation. As far as books go, I’ve finally started building my digital library via Amazon’s Kindle store, and I’m working my way through several books. I’m also looking into ComiXology as a way to keep up with comics, but I think that might end up being a bit too expensive of a habit for me.

So basically, you’ll be seeing more of me over the next few weeks/months. At least until football season starts. Then we all know where I’ll be!

PS: I’m also going to finally kill the absurd thought that I’m actually going to build a website from the ground up. It turns out WordPress is way more than a blogging platform (Thanks Kraft!) and can do some awesome stuff, so I’m going to explore what I can do within that framework and probably move all of this over to the root of thetexbot.com instead of having it reside at /blog